life's extension
well, life goes on. chai's flight that was originally scheduled for today was moved to a later date, on the 25th. it's so hard to live your day normally knowing that your mate is about to leave you. you couldn't make advance plans, trips and other activities. haaaaay... i just couldn't get it out of my head. the thought of her leaving makes me weak inside. adds up to the ever-so-stressful life i'm living.
everything is uncertain though. her visa (as well as her brother's) are still pending because of the dependency issues (fyi: they are both working). maybe she'll be accepted, maybe not but what is certain is that once she passes the migration people, her leaving me is as sure as day follows night.
waiting is the worst! it's like hearing from the grim reaper himself that you will die any time within the year. you tend to get paranoid. everywhere you go, you would look at all directions scouting for a runaway train or a falling safe (i sure hope i hav my uber small umbrella once that happens).
i hope you guys know what i'm feeling right now. this is really hard for us. chai has really made a mark in my heart that wouldn't be erased for decades, forever. i really love her but the though of her leaving me makes me very vulnerable. i don't know what to do whether to follow her or to wait for her to come back here. but even though she returns here after 2 years or until she gets her australian citizenship the fact is she would then be an aussie (hmm.. i remembered my post about MIGRATION), and she would be based there maybe in melbourne. life is a lot better there than it would ever be here. i don't want to be selfish separating her from her family and her eden. now, i'm just taking it a day at a time. cherishing every moment left with my shine. when that time comes, i would wait for her like a loyal dog. (sigh)
i don't know if i could take it, im badly missing her right now (just 7 days without seeing her) pathetic...
everything is uncertain though. her visa (as well as her brother's) are still pending because of the dependency issues (fyi: they are both working). maybe she'll be accepted, maybe not but what is certain is that once she passes the migration people, her leaving me is as sure as day follows night.
waiting is the worst! it's like hearing from the grim reaper himself that you will die any time within the year. you tend to get paranoid. everywhere you go, you would look at all directions scouting for a runaway train or a falling safe (i sure hope i hav my uber small umbrella once that happens).
i hope you guys know what i'm feeling right now. this is really hard for us. chai has really made a mark in my heart that wouldn't be erased for decades, forever. i really love her but the though of her leaving me makes me very vulnerable. i don't know what to do whether to follow her or to wait for her to come back here. but even though she returns here after 2 years or until she gets her australian citizenship the fact is she would then be an aussie (hmm.. i remembered my post about MIGRATION), and she would be based there maybe in melbourne. life is a lot better there than it would ever be here. i don't want to be selfish separating her from her family and her eden. now, i'm just taking it a day at a time. cherishing every moment left with my shine. when that time comes, i would wait for her like a loyal dog. (sigh)
i don't know if i could take it, im badly missing her right now (just 7 days without seeing her) pathetic...
posted by droz at 11:08
8 Comments:
tara labas tayo sa sunday... sana pwede si butch lumabas ng araw na yun :)
sure! text-text na lang.
hey napadaan lang sa blog mo..you dont know me, i dont know you either.. but i know what you feel..its just hard having to plan something when you know the person you treasure the most will be away from you..i left the philippines more than a year ago and it just sucks having to leave someone behind not knowing when will you return..it kills me to see that person wait for me..it seems so unfair for that person..its hard having a long distance relationship but when you get through it, you'll tell yourself its all worth it..it might look very complicated but you'll learn to treasure your relationship more..its not seeing each other often that will make you stronger or how often you talk to each other, but the love you share itself..
Onga sama kayo sa Sunday ah. :)
anonymous: thanks a lot sa payo mo. yup, tama lahat yan. sana kung ano man yung nagyari sa story mo, naging maganda. (kami din sana...) sabi nga ng tatay ko sakin, i'll come out stronger after that.
ea: sensya na, i was really busy today, si chai din kaya di kami nakasama ni chai. family day e.
ok lang may next time pa naman dba?
Yup sure, it's okay. Next time ah. :)
saturday, be there or else! haha!
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